Regardless of the situation, the poster does not seem to be in a stable enough mental state for this kind of experience. While you may have had transformative experiences with these substances, you have to remember that there is a dark side as well. Going into a psychedelic trip with a depressed, lonely mindset could very well amplify that and cause the poster to do something unfortunate.
Maybe a guided MDMA experience would be better, so that the poster can talk through the issues with someone IRL. Still, it's not our place to be "prescribing" drugs to someone who really should be getting some professional opinions.
> Still, it's not our place to be "prescribing" drugs to someone who really should be getting some professional opinions.
Of course it's not our place to prescribe drugs. I am not prescribing anything.
If you say you're tired and someone tells you, "Grab a cup of coffee" or "Take a nap", are they writing you a prescription? No!
This advice is given in the same spirit, and while you may think it's bad advice, that is your opinion, based, hopefully, on your personal experience. This is my opinion, it happens to differ with yours, and it is based on my personal experience, and it also happens to be grounded in sound science. [1]
No prescription necessary, just an honest suggestion that the poster is free to research for him or herself.
Yes, there are risks to be aware of, and hence my mentioning set and setting, and the importance of having a sitter. Take the advice or leave it, I'm just mentioning it, and yes, conditionally endorsing it.
Maybe a guided MDMA experience would be better, so that the poster can talk through the issues with someone IRL. Still, it's not our place to be "prescribing" drugs to someone who really should be getting some professional opinions.