> but deep down I am ready to jump in front of a train once my mother dies.
I have a similar ideology to yours but I'm not sad like this because I'm not experiencing what appears to be clinical depression.
You should seek medical intervention, it saved my life and it might save yours, which is worth saving. Intervention didn't pull the wool over my eyes about how flawed our society is or how selfish neoliberal capitalism tries to force everyone to be, it just gave me the psychological tools to maintain enough optimism to keep me alive and having enough energy to try to make changes, even if they're small local ones.
> People gave up, we are locked in a system voting for people that don't represent our interests.
There are other ways to live. Just because a huge majority of people live in these systems doesn't mean you have to as well, plenty have "opted out" without ending their lives. You could find some people living alternatively through a Food Not Bombs chapter near you, or some other anarchistic or alternative living group.
The dominant social structure isn't designed for people like you and me to thrive and be ourselves and so it's totally ok to find other people like us that want to live differently and let everyone else do whatever bizarre thing they're going to do with these enforced ways of living modern society presents.
I have a similar ideology to yours but I'm not sad like this because I'm not experiencing what appears to be clinical depression.
You should seek medical intervention, it saved my life and it might save yours, which is worth saving. Intervention didn't pull the wool over my eyes about how flawed our society is or how selfish neoliberal capitalism tries to force everyone to be, it just gave me the psychological tools to maintain enough optimism to keep me alive and having enough energy to try to make changes, even if they're small local ones.
> People gave up, we are locked in a system voting for people that don't represent our interests.
There are other ways to live. Just because a huge majority of people live in these systems doesn't mean you have to as well, plenty have "opted out" without ending their lives. You could find some people living alternatively through a Food Not Bombs chapter near you, or some other anarchistic or alternative living group.
The dominant social structure isn't designed for people like you and me to thrive and be ourselves and so it's totally ok to find other people like us that want to live differently and let everyone else do whatever bizarre thing they're going to do with these enforced ways of living modern society presents.